It’s Dark in Here.

The mountains and valleys of life are very curious and unpredictable. Just when I think I may be turning the corner or slowing down the ride for a nice view, the roller coaster does a big dip and makes my stomach flop. If you know me at all, you know I greatly dislike roller coasters. I don’t like the unknown, the icky feeling, AKA “thrill” feeling it gives some people.

Though I recently went through a really rough batch and felt forgotten and lonely, I ultimately know that I am not. It’s so easy to forget when it’s dark though. I imagine you can relate. I heard this message in a few different ways as I was working through the dark spot: look for the little ways that God is providing, nudging me, or reminding me that He’s there. In one of the sermons at church I heard, “the way God often works is through committed kindness, little by little”. That can come in many ways and I found it a timely and helpful reminder to keep me from wallowing too much in my self-pity.  A kind encourager told me that God reveals Himself way more than I likely realize. As I have come to recognize and gratefully so: just because God doesn’t fix me or my circumstances doesn’t mean He’s not present. I have spent a lot of time getting caught up in that frustrating web, which really ends up just entangling me more tightly. Tim Keller says, “If we are in a storm and we pray to him, he may still the storm (Mark 4:39), or he may instead help us, as he did Peter, to walk through the storm without sinking (Matthew 14:27-31).”

I hope you, dear reader, can begin to look up and out more often at the ways your Creator may be providing for and encouraging you. Ask Him to direct ways that you could be used by Him to encourage someone else. He is good. No matter what it looks like outside or feels like inside, He is good. 

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About emilyb123

mother, wife, daughter, sister, friend, teacher, & sinner saved by Grace
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8 Responses to It’s Dark in Here.

  1. Martha says:

    Thanks for sharing your ups and downs–encouraging to hear about knowing the goodness of God in spite of circumstances!

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  2. Alison says:

    Thanks Emily for another inspiring blog. Each of us have our own invidiual afflictions. It’s encouraging to hear others story. Continuing prayers for you.

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  3. Laura Arnold says:

    Thanks, Emily. What you wrote encouraged me too. The enemy likes to make us feel so alone when we go through periods like this, but we have so much company, we don’t even realize.

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  4. Maribeth says:

    I got a love of riding roller coasters from my Mom. ( Can you believe she liked them?)It was always exciting for me, yet I usually had butterflies at some point. I think that’s a pretty normal feeling on a roller coaster. Life is often like that, because we can’t always anticipate what will happen, & we have a fear of the unknown. Sometimes we forget that we have a “safety bar”: the protection of God’s loving arms. And when it’s dark, He will shine a light.
    So many of us can relate to what you express in your blogs. Thank you!

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